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Mattie Chillin' in the Car

Mattie’s Check-up at Temple Street (11th February 2014)

We had a brilliant time over the Christmas break, with two trips back to England one for new year, and another to catch up with friends in early Jan. Watching Matthew as he observed other babies, toddlers and assorted infants of all ages was fun. His excitement at wanting to get involved was really reassuring. Since my last post about Matthew we feel he really has made huge progress. However not all has been smooth sailing. During one of our recent ferry crossings I saw Mattie have a spasm, and in total we’ve seen about 10 individual spasms over the Christmas and New Year period. In fairness Mattie had also picked up some sort of virus over the Christmas period, which I’m sure didn’t help. Seeing the spasms made both Emma and I more keen than ever to hear what the doctors have to say about his progress, in particular if anything in his last EEG was concerning or worrying.

Emma’s Report

On Tuesday Emma took Mattie back into Temple Street hospital for his check-up. Mattie was seen by a new Registrar, the head of neurology, physiotherapy and occupational therapy. While he didn’t get another EEG he did get a good checkout, with some interesting feedback.

Neurology & Weight Check

First up was the neurology department where a nurse weighed him and Mattie checked in at 12.7kg. Mattie’s weight is important as it defines the dosage of medication he receives.

Meeting the New Registrar

This meeting consisted of explaining Mattie’s history to a new doctor. Within Temple Street Hospital the registrars all rotate between departments, our last doctor had moved on and Emma spent a lot of time filling in the new Registrar. Emma recapped all of Matthew’s history and touched base on the last EEG, which was performed in Nov, although Emma didn’t get the chance to discuss it in detail. Next the reg and Emma went through the process of checking Matthew’s developmental progress.

Q. Is Matthew standing yet?
A. No… But Mattie is sitting up brilliantly by himself and playing well on his own. The Registrar wasn’t concerned by the fact he wasn’t walking. The Reg shared statistics that only 25% of kids walk by 12 months, which increases to 97.5% by 18 months. Then of the remaining 2.5% only few have reasons for not walking. Mattie has no reason apart from IS, so he should catch up. Mattie’s pincher grasp and eye/hand eye/mouth coordination was excellent. Mattie was really focused on trying to grab his pen whilst he was talking to me – got it in the end and was trying to take the lid off:)

As I mentioned in the past, the drug Mattie is currently taking (Vigabatrin, also known as Sabril) has the potential of causing peripheral vision loss.

The Registrar also checked Mattie’s peripheral vision while Mattie was distracted – his response was excellent 🙂 Mattie picked up on the slightest movement out of the corner of his eye – this bodes well considering the medication he is on.

Verbal Development
The Registrar also asked about Mattie’s verbal skills. Mattie is doing brilliantly here – “Mama”, “Dada”, “Hiya”, and “all gone” (which doc was particularly pleased to hear about – two words together:)). Also Mattie responded brilliantly when the Registrar called his name :)Emma explained the that we had seen two spasms on Jan 28th when he had a virus but nothing since.

Meeting the Neurology Consultant

The Registrar had obviously done all the leg work and filled the Neurology Consultant in. The Consultant welcomed us into the room with a smile and said he heard Mattie is doing brilliantly. Queue Mattie smiling, clapping his hands and banging the table.The Consultant said he wouldn’t change anything and plan to see us in 6 months providing Mattie stayed well.

I had some questions though:

Q. Mattie’s EEG in Nov showed much improvement, little or no hypsarrythmia but a slow electrical background. I asked the significance of this.

A. Apparently his EEG was much improved but one or two individual electrical spikes where observed along the slow background. This can mean a few things:
1. Vigabatrin is keeping IS under control but might not be suppressing it 100% this could account for spikes and slow background may be present due to medication
2. Spike and slow background may be due to another form of epilepsy being present. This will remain an unknown until we wean meds and observe what EEG and Matthew does going forward – so it’s a wait and see

Q. What is the plan for weaning?!

A. The Registrar had said they would wean a year from the last spas`m observed – which would be jan 2015. However the Consultant corrected this, he said we would wean from a year the last significant presence of IS was observed – so that makes it end of September or early October. The plan which was agreed was to return to hospital on September 23rd for an EEG and another appointment with the Consultant, if the EEG is good the Mattie should start to be weaned off his Vigabatrin over an 8 week period. If more IS/seizures are observed then we need to go back in for another EEG to figure out how to treat going forward.

Q. We’re planning on a trip to the US later on this year, but the time zone difference and the time spent travelling may mean that we have to reset or alter the set times we currently give Mattie his medication.

A. The Consultant had no concerns here, apparently Vigabatrin is one of the less time sensitive medications. So giving doses 10 or 14 hours apart will cause no issues.

We’ve also seen Mattie exhibit some odd behaviour, like arching his back and flinging his hands up to his head, particularly when he’s tired. It doesn’t look like a spasm, but it doesn’t look 100% normal either. Emma wanted to check that out too…

Finally I had described some behaviours that Mattie has – which is arching his back/flinging himself back when tired. Fortuitously (or not) Mattie did this at the end of the appointment with the Consultant.The Consultant’s response was that is it’s an odd behaviour but is most likely just that – a behaviour. But again only time will tell, so we just need to keep an eye on it!

Appointment with Physiotherapy & Occupational Therapy Specialists


The Physiotherapist’s first impress of Mattie was that he has come along brilliantly in 3 months. Compared to his last visit Mattie is now sitting up fabulously and balancing himself. He’s also reaching, stretching and grabbing well. We’ve also seen Mattie try to start shuffling on his bum, he’s not got the hang of it yet, and when he does do it both Emma and I are pretty sure he doesn’t realise that he’s actually moved himself. But all in all the Physiotherapist thought this was also brilliant.Mattie still hates his tummy time, but the Physio said need to continue to encourage him to do this. The Physio suggested working on getting him on his knees (because he does hold his weight well) and showing him how to get from knees to bum and vice versa.

Mattie has started taking his weight well on his feet too, but there is room for improvement here too. We need to encourage positive pressure on his feet, we can do this by sitting him on one of our thighs and then putting Mattie’s feet flat down on the ground either side of our thigh.

Mattie has all the precursors for walking, we just to work on encouraging him to give it a go.

When we were initially referred to a physio for Mattie we were unable to get a physio close to home. There were none available. So instead we’ve been driving into the centre of Dublin to visit the physio centre in Temple Street Children’s hospital. Things seem to have improved and we are now getting a referral to a closer, more local physiotherapist. Hopefully that will work out. If it doesn’t we’ve a back-up booking back at Temple Street for later on in March.

Occupational Therapist

The Occupational Therapist was absolutely delighted with Mattie :). Matties seems to be doing everything he should be at this age and more :). Mattie’s pincher grip is awesome, he’s passing from hand to hand well, picking blocks out of a box and putting them back in. We just need to encourage Mattie to move up to the next stage; shape sorting !The next visit with the Occupation Therapist is tentatively scheduled for May / June (waiting for appointment confirmation and final date), that should be our last appointment with the occupational therapist! … Wohooo go Mattie!

Mattie playing just before bed – check out those motor skills!

Mattie fast asleep in Emma's arms

Mattie’s Spasms Return

It was about a week after Mattie’s last check-up. I was back home, my travelling temporarily suspended. We were in the middle of bath time, and Ben was still splashing about in the water. Mattie had already been been picked up and dried off. I was sheltering from a storm of splashing about when Emma poked her head into the bathroom, she had Mattie in her arms. “I just saw another one” she said. That is when we knew that the spasms had returned.

Spotting Trouble

We’d had such a good check-up, to have them return so soon was upsetting. Just seeing one spasm isn’t so bad – they are hard to spot at the moment, and the guidance we got from the hospital had been to keep an eye out for spasms which cluster, and particularly so around tired times – waking up, or just about to sleep.

We left it a few days, watching and waiting and hoping that we wouldn’t see any more, but we did. Within two days of originally spotting the spasm Emma had called the hospital.

Thinking Pragmatically

Matthew’s medication is calculated based on a formula, he is given x milligrams of Sabril (Vigabatrin) per kilogram of his body weight. Emma and I came to the conclusion that when Mattie grows, which all babies do, his dosage effectively reduces; he gets the same x milligrams of Sabril (Vigabatrin), but his body weight has increased. So it is necessary to keep an eye on the medication and to make adjustments as he grows. Given Mattie’s recent, very successful check-up we believed that it couldn’t be anything too worrying. But still it is hard to tell.

EEG Request

Mattie has not had an EEG in months.

The spasms Mattie suffers from are just a side effect of the increased electrical activity in his brain. The plan, as described to us by the doctor, is to treat the symptom in the hope that should it go away, the underlying condition, the electrical activity will also have reduced. You really wouldn’t think of using this in an engineering world and it seems odd to both Emma and I. It is even more odd when you realised that the spasms can be so subtle that they are hard to determine.

We felt that getting an EEG would help. It would give us some confidence that the medication was working, or if the spasms had returned, some measure of how ineffective the medication had become.

We were told that EEGs are only carried out when it is felt that it will answer a question. The original plan had been to not do another EEG until next year. But given our concern, we really wanted one. So when Emma called the hospital she explained our request, and the reasons why. Consequently, we were able to get Mattie booked in for one in just a couple of days time. At the same time we all agreed to up Matthew’s dosage of Sabril (Vigabatrin).

That evening we increased Mattie’s dosage from 800mg of Vigabatrin to 1000mg per day. It normally takes a couple of days for the impact of any changes in dosage to be visible, and sure enough, after a couple of days Mattie’s spasms vanished. As a precaution we planned to up his dosage to 1400mg per day.

News from the Crèche

A couple of days after we initially increased his dosage, Emma arrived home with the two boys from crèche and said “The carers in the crèche seem really happy with Mattie. I even got a comment that ‘he really seems to have come alive’”. It was great to have a third party confirm what we had noticed at home. With the increase in dosage Mattie really seemed to be a bit more alert, and he was into everything, picking things up and throwing them about. It really seemed like the increase dosage had taken effect in such a great way.

Business Trip

I really haven’t had that many work trips this year, however two seem to come almost back to back. As a result, I was out of the country during Mattie’s appointment.

The Appointment

In addition to the hastily arranged EEG Mattie had an appointment with the physiotherapy and occupational therapy nurses. Starting at 8am it was going to be a very busy day.

Mattie was up early. Emma woke him at 5 am for the trip into hospital. The EEG is conducted when Mattie is asleep. The hospital is about 40 minutes from our house and Mattie was bound to sleep in the car, then wake all ‘bright eyed and bushy tailed’. But Emma had a most cunning plan; to arrive in early and wake him in the car, give him a bottle and play with him, basically try to knacker him out before his appointment. The plan worked. One very tired baby fell fast asleep during his EEG. Unusually towards the end of the EEG, when Mattie was awake and still hooked up to the sensors the nurse administering it started shining lights into Mattie’s eyes. It didn’t seem to phase him. We didn’t hear why they were doing this, but I assume it wa s because for some children the spasms can be triggered by flashing lights.

Unfortunately we wouldn’t hear more for another two to three weeks, until the results of the EEG were shared with us.

Occupational Therapist & Physiotherapist Update

In contrast with the wait for the EEG results, we got the results from the Physiotherapist and the Occupational Therapist instantly: Great Progress.

In stark contrast to the last time Matthew visited he was now almost sitting up by himself – he was able to do it for a couple of minutes before getting tired. His “tummy time” work had also improved considerable.

The Occupational Therapist was impressed by his new found motor skills – he picked up a Cheerio with no trouble, he was passing things between hands, pinching and grasping everything within sight, all the things they were looking for at his first appointment.

Community Health Worker Check-up

I’m sure many parents who have two children do the same thing; compare how the youngest is doing with how the eldest developed. Of course you try not to, because every baby is different, but it is almost impossible not to and particularly when the youngest baby has a condition which might affect their development. So it was extremely reassuring when the community health worker came to visit.

In Ireland a community health worker will frequently check up on new born children and their families, they help provide some initial contact for parents. The community health workers also measure and track babies development, and during our latest visit Mattie was weighed, measured and recorded. At 80 cm in length (about 31 & 1/2 inches) Mattie charted at over the 100 percentile for babies his age. I think he’s going to be a tall chap. The community health worker also provided us with some feedback on how Mattie is doing. She told us not to worry too much about the fact that Mattie wasn’t sitting up by himself all the time, many babies his age can’t do that.

Mattie feeling better. With out Spasms and Keeping his head up

Mattie – Is he back to normal?

Tuesday 2nd October 2013

“Is this baby ours?” – It’s a question Emma and I asked ourselves as we lay in bed listening to Mattie in the cot beside us. It was 3am, and Mattie had been playing and giggling from 1:30am, and has no sign of slowing down… Maybe he’s hungry?

First Week on Vigabatrin 600mg / day | (54.54 mg/kg)

Mattie has made some good steady progress over the last couple of weeks. Over the first week we saw Mattie’s spasms drop off. It became very hard to tell if he was having them. Mattie’s demeanour changed, he became more excitable and interested in everything around him. We got even more giggles and laughs, it was a joy to see. I hadn’t seen any spasms at all, but Emma, who is still on maternity leave with him, was convinced that he was still having mini spasms.

Slight Spasms

The spasms have changed in nature, they’ve gone from a full on sequence of jerky movements, like we’ve recorded in our initial blog post, to something much more subtle. A head jerk, or an odd eye role, twitchy movements of hands, movements repeated for a long time. The repeated movements reminded me of watching people high on ecstasy dancing in a night club, the repeated dance steps, were like Matthew’s repeated head movements.

But eventually over time even these movements have become less frequent, and ness noticeable. To the point where we end up asking ourselves, “Was that a spasm, or has he just startled himself – like a normal baby?”.

Check-up Monday September 23rd 800mg | (72.72 mg/kg)

The plan we agreed with the doctors had always been to increase the dose of Vigabatrin on a weekly basis until it reached the point where Mattie’s spasms had disappeared. This is something both Emma and I are careful to watch, as I mentioned in a previous post the side effects of Vigabatrin include possible permanent vision loss. We used Mattie’s weekly check-ups as the opportunities to assess the need to increase the dosage. As I hadn’t seen any spasms I was reluctant to increase the dosage, but right there during his check-up he had two spasms, and they were witnessed by Emma and the nurse. This was ultimately bad news, but it was great to have someone else there to see them happen. They had become so slight that it was getting increasingly difficult to confidently spot.

Check-up on Monday September 30th (dosage / kg)

Over the course of the week since the last check-up Mattie has continued to improve. He became more alert and more crazy! – Giggling laughing, and physically a lot more active. It’s as if he’s a super charged car, which has been driven with the handbrake on, now it’s been released he’s zooming away. At his check-up on the 30th he got the all clear from the nurses and it was agreed that there was no need to increase his dosage.

It is still very hard to be sure that he is not having any more spasms. He’s so very active, we had thought his older brother Ben was active, but this is on a different scale all together. That it has made Emma and I wonder if the over activity is related to the Vigabatrin, or the Infantile Spasms themselves?

I would like to have another EEG, just to prove that the hypsarrhythmia has gone and that Mattie’s back on full form, but we had agreed with the consultant that it would not be necessary as the consultant said at the time it wouldn’t provide him with any additional information. But the more I think about it, now, the more I find that hard to understand. If the original idea had been to treat the EEG (the hypsarrhythmia) and that the removal of spasms would be an indicator that the EEG is back to normal, well then, now… when we’re not sure that the spasms have completely passed, and we’re struggling to tell, – isn’t it now a great time to check with the EEG? It is something I feel I need to raise with the consultant, just to be sure.

Wednesday 2nd October

Emma had searched the internet and learnt that the jittering and excited-ness is also a side effect of Vigabatrin. Perhaps with would explain Mattie’s excited-ness during the nights?

The Bug Strikes…

We’d just sat down in front of the TV, both boys where in bed and all was quiet in the house. When I heard it – a cough. “The cough” which changed what was to be a relaxing evening, complete with some down time to update this blog, into another all night sit up. Except this sit up was to be one most parents are familiar with. The winter vomiting bug had arrived and poor Mattie was the first in the family to come down with it.

I headed up stairs to find Mattie awake, and smiling in his cot, but all around him was a halo of vomit. Poor guy.

We’d been told that Mattie’s immune system would be compromised after taking the Prednisone, and it would take some time to recover. We’d also been told that if he gets anything like a vomiting bug that we were to not wait around like we would if it was Ben, but to get in touch straight away. So after cleaning Mattie up and bringing him downstairs I called Temple Street and spoke to the on call medical registrar. After explaining Mattie’s background she told me that the intake of fluid was important, and to try Mattie on some dioralyte. Assuming he could keep that down he would be doing well. If he was having any trouble with taking fluids that we should seek help straight away.

We started the Dioralyte that evening, giving him small drops every 10 minutes. Within an hour we had a full “exorcist” baby moment and everything came back up. However the next hour went much better and eventually Mattie fell fast asleep.

Thursday 2nd October – Docs check-up all ok, you can relax now.

The next morning Emma took Mattie in to see the GP. He got the once over and we got some reassurance that he was OK. The doctor was telling Emma that now the treatment is starting to work for his IS (touch wood) we can start to look forward to treating Mattie just like any other baby. It was great to hear this, and I guess after all of the stress of the last month it still seems a little odd to treat him normally.

Friday 3rd October – Is this the return of Infantile Spasms?

Mattie woke early after a restless night. He was still tired from the day before and his little system is probably recovering from the bug.
Emma was with Mattie, when the spasms returned. Five in a row, slight, but definitely there.

In the morning Emma called and spoke to the Neurology Registrar at Temple Street. Normally a spasm would trigger an increase the Vigabatrin dose, however the Reg suggested that we wait. See how it goes over the next day or two, was this a once off? Or is it a trend? – Only time will tell. If Mattie appears to be developing normally than there isn’t anything to worry about, yet.

Saturday 4th October

Today was a great day, Emma and I cleared out the nursery and got Matthew’s gear moved in. Tonight Mattie spent his first night in his own room. To achieve this Emma and I both needed to get stuck into all of the junk that had been deposited in the nursery. Emma’s sister had offered to look after Mattie, while Ben got to hang out with his Grandfather. It was great to get a second pair of eyes on Mattie, to get a different perspective, and apart from Mattie still recovering from his tummy bug, and his appetite being less than before there really wasn’t anything to report. . . a normal baby once more.

From speaking to other parents we’ve met via Facebook Emma discovered that often an illness will bring back some of the spasms, but this is normally due to the baby being under some increased stress because of the illness.

It was also a huge milestone for us as a family, Mattie got his first night sleep in his own room, and we got the first night in our room alone.

Sunday 6th October – More Spasms?

Matthew was just sitting in his new bath chair, in the bath. Holding him tight I reach up to wash him with a sponge, when he jumps, back straight. — Was that a spasm? The rest of the day had been normal. Nothing unusual. Mattie had slept well in his own room, and the only news to report was that his appetite still isn’t 100% – but then perhaps we’re just seeing it return to normal after the Prednisone has worn off.

But after his bath, as Emma was getting him ready for Bed Emma thought she saw two more spasms. We think we did, but it is just so hard to tell.

Mattie back in hospital and not sleeping for Mummy - it's time to play!

Matthew’s Back in Hospital

Back to Hospital

Monday 16th of September

The house feels empty and quite. Ben is in bed sleeping and I’m typing away in the study. No one else is here. Matthew is back in hospital and Emma is by his side. All down to a routine check-up, that wasn’t that routine, and a small factor which started at his check-up last week…

Tuesday 10th of September (Check-up Last Week)

During Mattie’s check-up he had his blood pressure taken. It was 118/70, high and the nurse and doctor seemed concerned. It appeared higher than normal in the hospital when he was last admitted however this time it didn’t seem much of a concern, so little of a concern in fact that I didn’t mention it in my last note.

Spike of Spasms

Confusingly the start of the Vigabatrin seems to have resulted in Mattie having more Spasms, not less.

Matthew's Spasms and Medication Charted

Matthew’s Spasms and Medication Charted

The Vigabatrin comes in sachets of 500mg, we’ve got to give him two doses of 200mg. Tuesday night we got our dilution calculations wrong and gave him 20% (1 fifth) and not 40% (2 fifths) we should have done. We corrected that for the next dose on Wednesday.

At the same time that we introduced the Vigabatrin we reduced the steroids. The increasing in spasms has gotten Emma and I both quite concerned; the steroid reduction wasn’t significant enough to have resulted in the rise of spasms, so why has it happened?

Cranky Baby Week

The change in medication also heralded the start of “Cranky Baby Week”. Ohh my word… Mattie would cry and scream almost constantly. As soon as we put him down he would start to cry. The crying sometimes marked the start of spasm cluster. With Ben, as I guess with a lot of babies, once we knew he was OK and that nothing was wrong we’d let him cry it out. But for Mattie with his spasms, we felt that that really wasn’t fair.

To top it all off Matthew has continued to teeth like mad, with bright flushed cheeks, and his fingers almost constantly wedged into his mouth. Dummies last about 5 minutes before being spat out and the crying returns.

The crankiness continued from Wednesday all the way through to Saturday morning – none stop. Emma is a rock star and kept a brave face through it all but it really wasn’t fun. – This really was Teething on Steroids.

Worried About Spasms

By Thursday afternoon Emma and I had grown very concerned about the increase in spasms, so much so that we decided to get in touch with the hospital.

Spasms Return in Intensity

Mattie back in hospital and not sleeping for Mummy - it's time to play!

Mattie back in hospital and not sleeping for Mummy – it’s time to play!

Up to this point we had seen a drop in the spasms. The strong, intense spasms we saw before going to the hospital had vanished; they had been reduced to a spasm which looked more like a little startle, and we’re getting hard to spot. That was until the new treatment started.

By 10 am on Thursday morning we had noticed several individual (not clusters) of spasms, more than we saw before the change in medication. They were “full on” intense spasms, like the ones we saw before his medication started.

Could this rise in spasms be related to the Vigabatrin? Is it too early to tell?

11:21 AM – We’re worried enough to call Temple Street.

I got through to a registrar who works for another lead doctor, not the head of neurology we had been seeing. I explained what we’ve seen so far and the doctor on the phone explained that, that was not what they would expect to see. She is going to talk to someone on our doctor’s team. The doctor on the phone took down my telephone number, and thanked me for calling to let them know. Now we’ve just got to wait and see.

3pm (ish)

Got a call from a registrar from our normal doctor’s team in Temple Street. The long and short of it is that the new drug won’t cause the spasms. It seems that the steroids were not as effective as we hoped. The presence of spasms now suggests that the spike is coincidental. The reduction in the steroids so far isn’t enough to have caused the spasms to return either.

Trying to Introduce Normality

The spasms and grumpiness continued right through Friday and only let up a little on Saturday when we did a family trip to the zoo. It was great to get out of the house and try to do something normal as a family.

I think that Independently Emma and I had reached the same point. For me it came while washing and sterilising bottles, I looked down into the sink and realised I wasn’t sterilising bottles any more – I was sterilising the syringes we use to give Mattie his medication. It was a very depressing though, I never thought I’d be putting more syringes in the steriliser than baby bottles. I found this upsetting. After feeling sorry for myself for at least a good 30 minutes I decided to give myself a good, mental kick up the arse. Being upset about it wasn’t going to help anyone. With Ben’s birthday coming up there was plenty to look forward to.

The trip to the zoo was a welcome reminder of normality. The trip also appears to have been a watershed moment for Mattie; his grumpiness seemed to reduce after this.

Small reductions in spasms and grumpiness continued over the weekend and by the time Mattie arrived at the hospital on Monday morning he was all smiles and giggles.

Emma and I were both looking forward to chatting with someone face to face about Mattie’s spike in spasms and what has been causing it.

Monday 16th September

Mattie back in hospital and not sleeping for Mummy - it's time to play!

Mattie back in hospital and not sleeping for Mummy – it’s time to play!

When Emma arrived at Template Street for the check-up she discovered that the consultant we are seeing was out on vacation and the registrar that we had been seeing was also out.

Emma and Mattie were only in for a check-up by one of the nurses so that wasn’t a big deal. During the check-up the nurse took Mattie’s blood pressure 4 times. It was high, very high – at one point 140/90. To put that in context a baby’s systolic BP (the top figure) should be (usually) somewhere between 70 – 90. The nurse asked Emma to stay close to the hospital while she got hold of a doctor to check out Mattie’s stats.

Emma had planned to go out shopping for Ben’s birthday in town anyway, so this worked well. The nurse said that they may want to see Mattie again after she had spoken to a doctor.

After about a week of a really, extremely cranky baby Mattie seemed to be in a much better mood today. He was playing and “goo-ing”.

The nurse explained to Emma that a side effect of the steroid (Prednisolone) is agitation and restlessness (cranky baby). But this side effect doesn’t hit straight away, it arrives after about two weeks of starting the medication. Apparently it catches a lot of parents by surprise. It’s nice to see that it has eased off a little.

Emma called me over lunch

I’ve just heard back from the hospital. They want me to bring Mattie back in. The nurse said that we should be prepared – they might need to admit him for observation while his blood pressure is so high, They want to see if his blood pressure as settled since we’ve been out and about.

Mattie’s admitted

After returning to the hospital Mattie had his blood pressure checked again, it was still high, too high. Mattie was admitted and given medication to bring his blood pressure back down to normal. Additionally the doctors are looking and speeding up weaning process to get him off the Prednisolone (steroids) more quickly than we had originally expected. Then, just to confirm everything is OK Mattie is scheduled for a Doppler exam on his heart tomorrow. The Doppler exam should tell us if there has been any damage to his heart from the high blood pressure, of if, there is anything wrong with the blood flow which might be causing the higher blood pressure. The doctor’s aren’t expecting to find anything. I hope they don’t either…

Home at last! - Emma, Ben and Mattie enjoying breakfast together for the first time since Mattie was admitted to hospital.

Home at last – Mattie and Infantile Spasms (Part 5)

Friday 30th of August – Saturday 31st of August

Friday 30th August

I spent Thursday night in the hospital with Mattie, and Emma eventually got some rest at home – but not until she’d spent hours sending photos of Mattie to friends and family from her phone.

The ward was quiet on Thursday night, even so, Mattie has a restless night. He woke and had a cluster of spasms at midnight, 1am, 3am and then was awake and in great form playing from about 3:30 until 4am. He woke again at 5am, and eventually at 5:30am I gave in and gave him a bottle of milk. He was in great form in the morning and I got some wonderful smiles from him. He had breakfast and at 8:30 he had another set of spasms. Mattie got sleepy, as he does after a cluster of spasms and started to dose in my arm.

It was just a waiting game now until we got called for the optometry appointment.

The Consultant

The consultant who had admitted Mattie on Monday came down to visit. The consultant was in a great mood and was checking that Mattie was now firmly in the hands of the Neurology team. The consultant explained that there was much to be pleased with, Mattie had given some good results so far. The MRI showed no physical cause – this means that Mattie has “Crytogenic Infantile Spasms“, the rare form, but the form which as the better prognosis. – Mattie got lucky!!

The Long Lost Smiles are Back!

The Consultant asked how Mattie seemed. I explained that we’ve got something we didn’t know we’d missed… smiles. I had got some great smiles in the morning and Emma had the day before, and it’s crazy because even though Emma had told me, it was when I saw Mattie smile that it struck me that we hadn’t got many of those over the last couple of weeks. What a joy it was to seem them, it was like Mattie had had a little “wonder week” all to himself.

After the consultant left Mattie woke and was grumpy. I have him another bottle of milk and he settled again and fell asleep. He slept most of the morning until a doctor from neurology came down to visit.


A doctor from the Neurology team came down to see us next. The Doc asked how I felt about taking Mattie home today – it was impossible to hide a smile, “delighted”. I asked about the side effects of the steroids. Mattie’s course of steroids overlap with Emma’s expected return to work, and her (currently) scheduled Jury Service. I explained that this would mean Mattie going to crèche before the end of his steroids. The Doctor said we should avoid that if at all possible. Following Doc’s advice Emma has been working out the best way of extending her Maternity leave. She’s going to call her boss and explain the situation to him next week.

The Doctor asked how Mattie was getting on, I replied with the same update I’d given the consultant but added that Mattie had been asleep a lot this morning. The Doc looked a little concerned, but didn’t say anything about it.

Mattie was now asleep in his hospital cot and the nurse appeared to take his blood pressure, wrapping the cuff around his leg rather woke him up and he cried. The nurse explained that Mattie’s blood pressure was high, but it could be because he was upset and she’d come back later to check. Mattie settled and slept on for another hour or so. The nurse returned and as he woke I picked him up and had him in my arms, she checked his blood pressure and again it was high, perhaps it was the wrong sized cuff, she replaced the cuff and we tried again. No mistaking it now, Mattie’s blood pressure is up.

Still asleep I returned him to his cot. He slept on.

I started chatting to the nurses and in the course of the conversation I explained that Emma was heading to Ikea this morning for a new cot. Both Emma and I had noticed that Mattie as enjoying “star-fishing” in his hospital cot. The crib he was sleeping in at home was just too narrow for him now. We’d been hoping that Ben would have transition to his toddler bed, but he isn’t quite there yet. So it’s definitely time to replace Matthew’s cib, and nothing for it but purchasing him his very own new cot.

The nurse commented that, in a few months that this would leave us with both an empty cot and an empty crib.

“There is only one thing for that now” she said, “you’ll have to have another baby to fill the empty beds!”

“Ha!” I replied, “I’ve mentioned a 3rd baby to Emma before, you should see the panicked expression on her face!”

Getting late and Getting Worried

Chris and Mattie in Hospital on the last morning - trying hard to get some smiles from a tired baby

Chris and Mattie in Hospital on the last morning – trying hard to get some smiles from a tired baby

It was getting late, going on for 12:30 and Mattie had been asleep from 8:30, he was sleeping through all the hustle and bustle of a busy ward’s morning routine and hadn’t really woken. He should be getting hungry as he was late for his normal lunch time. I picked him up and tried to coax him awake, after 10 minutes he looked at me, his head lolled forward and his eyes rolled – he feel back asleep. With this plus his high blood pressure I started getting worried.

Am I being an anxious parent, or is this something serious? – Well I didn’t think the jerks we saw before Monday were anything to worry about, and I couldn’t have been more wrong. After calling Emma and double checking his lunch time, I grabbed a nurse and explained. The doctor was called.

As I returned from the nurses’ station Mattie woke up – and was starving…. little cute bugger, but after his bottle he fell back asleep.

Still Learning

I’ve started telling other people about Mattie’s condition, when I explain that he has epilepsy I get a “Oh, ok” response. But when I explain what I’ve learnt this week, and how it can impact on a babies development then their reaction changes. When I first heard of Mattie’s diagnosis I thought about the “fits” that you hear about, and occasionally seen portrayed on TV shows. But an infantile spasm is not like that at all. It’s quite subtle, but it’s what’s going on that we can’t see which is quiet frightening.

The Optometry Appointment

Just as Emma arrived in the early afternoon we were called for our optometry appointment. We all exited the ward via a secluded entrance at what we thought was a dead end of the ward; Temple Street really is like Hogwarts, or at least the house from “Cludo” with all of its hidden passages and shortcuts.

Mattie as given the once over by the optometrist and then given eye drops to dilate his pupils. We now had a 30 minute wait before the examination started in earnest. Mattie started to have a few single spasms, but seemed ok.

After the long night I was struggling so I took the opportunity to head home and freshen up. Just as I pulled up outside the house my phone rang it was Emma.

“You have to come back for us, we’re going home!

The optimist had found two perfect eyes with all nerve endings intact and functional. There was nothing wrong. Shortly after this Emma had met with a doctor from neurology who gave us the update from the MRI, the final written update has said Mattie was normal; we were free to take Mattie home!

Thank You Temple Street!

Emma had got the nurses on the ward some fresh baked goods and a thank you card – as I mentioned in a previous post they were simply amazing. The staff at Temple Street are brilliant, there is so much care and thoughtfulness from everyone, consultants, doctors, nurses, even other members of staff that I bumped into in the hallways. So it was so very nice to say thank you in some way.

Emma drove us all home and during the drive she told me about a conversation she had with one of the nurses on the ward.

“I hear your buying a new cot today” the nurse had said to Emma

“Yes, Matthew’s been star fishing in his hospital cot – definitely time to upgrade”

“Oh there is nothing for it then – you’ll have start working on two more babies to fill the empty cots that that will leave behind!” said the nurse.

“I must have given her a funny look” Emma said “because she looked at me for a second, then said ‘Yes, your husband said you’d have that expression’”.

Emma’s sister had collected Ben from crèche. Ben has known something was wrong, he’s been great though – but very, very clingy; hugging legs, not wanting us out of line of sight etc. He has known something was up. Ben was very surprised when I turned up at my sister in law’s front door, quickly followed by Mattie and Emma!

We grabbed a quick cup of tea at as it gave us time to give Mattie his dinner and fill Emma’s sister and brother in law in on the days updates. Unfortunately Mattie has another cluster of spasms as Emma was trying to feed him.

We got home, and Emma hit the Ikea flat packs with force. I hung out with the two boys, Mattie falling asleep on top of me, and Ben sitting with treats watching “Despicable Me” on TV.

One of our neighbours popped over with a little bag with a gift and a get well card for Mattie in it. It was a lovely gesture.

After 45 minutes Emma was done with her handy work and Mattie was safely ensconced in his new bed.

Myself and Ben took this as an opportunity to hit the local Pharmacies to pick up Mattie’s prescription, it was getting late and the first Pharmacy we called to didn’t have the drugs in stock. Luckily the pharmacist was able to call around the other pharmacies in the town and we got one with all we needed.

We’re out of the woods, but we’ve a valley to traverse

We are now all set, we’ve just got to wait until September the 10th for Mattie’s next EEG. So far we’ve got lucky. From the initial shock and confusion of Monday through the battery of tests, and trying hard to get up to speed on something you know nothing about, and about which the doctors seem reluctant to explain to now. It is like stumbling out of a thicket of trees into the open. We can now see a path in front of us. It’s across a valley, we can see the track for the next 10 days, but after that it vanishes.

Saturday Morning – 31st of August

I don’t think Ben knew what hit him – breakfast with the entire family around the table. It was great to have everyone back at home. Ben was all smiles, I think the last week has been tough on him too. It must have been weird for him. I know it was weird for us too.

Home at last! - Emma, Ben and Mattie enjoying breakfast together for the first time since Mattie was admitted to hospital.

Home at last! – Emma, Ben and Mattie enjoying breakfast together for the first time since Mattie was admitted to hospital.

Saturday Evening.

Emma and I have our fingers crossed that the steroids will kick in work well for Mattie, but as the doctors explained this is very subjective and each individual has a different reaction. We won’t know until the EEG. There is a correlation between the EEG and the spasms, so we’re still recording everyone he has – he had a big cluster tonight around bed time. I understand why the doctors are reluctant to explain the details to us; when the clusters hit they can be frightening for Mattie, but knowing what they are and their repercussions it also scares the crap out Emma and I.

Mattie has done great so far, as long as he stays well on the steroids his next battle is seeing how they have affected his EEG. And we won’t know that until September 10th.

As we’re now entering a longer stretch – fingers crossed we will not have anything major to report until the next EEG, I’ll reduce the volume of emails for now. I’ll be back in touch to let you know how the EEG goes, and Emma and I are still logging Mattie’s spasms.

A Very Big Thank You

Emma and I have been so very grateful to you all. Writing these notes has given us a way of structuring so much information, and so many things have happened that – at times it’s been extremely confusing and to be frank, very frightening.

Your responses and encouragement have helped hugely. Emma and I are really very thankful to have such a great bunch of family and friends. Emma and I hope that any other parents dealing with Infantile Spasms who read these notes will get as much comfort from them as we did from you guys.

Thank you all!

Emma and I will set up an Infantile Spasms Crib Sheet on this blog with details on useful links and publications, other web sites, stories and information. We’ll try to add to this as we go along.

Photo of @emmawoods and Mattie - both smiling after the MRI scan

Preliminary MRI Results – Mattie and Infantile Spasms (Part 4)

Catching up

I am trying to translate all my notes and recollections from last week into readable blog posts for you all as quickly as possible.

Being Cautious

Everyone likes to hope for the best, but a recent experience, which I don’t feel I can share publically here, made Emma and I vow to each other to not count our chickens before they hatch, no matter what result we get from a test, we’ll wait to see the final report.

Thursday 29th August 2013

It is late on the ward. I’m taking the night watch, and Emma should be asleep at home and recovering from doing three nights back to back. She isn’t. I know this as my phone is buzzing with images and SMSs – I even got an SMS which said “I’m off to bed”. Two minutes later it’s followed by a photo of Mattie Emma taken earlier in the day. We’re both tentatively relieved by the news we received today.

Thursday 29th August – 9am

I spoke to our crèche today. Mattie was due to start with the crèche at the end of September as Emma is due to return to work. This unfortunately overlaps with his steroid treatment, and assuming the best case outcome (he’ll be home and better with no spasms) he’ll be starting a little later. I needed to check if our crèche will take a baby with epilepsy, I know that not all do. Even if he’s better, there is a chance that he’ll have another spasm, and they’d need to be prepared for that.

Our crèche is also changing hands. It’s the same crèche Mattie’s brother Ben goes to, so we’ve known it now for over a year. The owner is retiring and she’s selling on the crèche. I spoke to one of the assistants at the crèche who said there was no problem with a delay in starting, but she didn’t know about taking on babies with epilepsy. We’d have to wait and speak to the new owner.

In other news, which I’ve not mentioned yet – Emma got called up for jury duty in October, the letter arrived on Monday. Epic timing. Maybe, unlike when we were burgled, we could claim for that on the home insurance?

Thursday 29th August – 10:45am

The phone rings, it’s Emma; Mattie is out of the MRI. Everything went well. Mattie was sedated for the imaging. He moved once or twice, but they got everything they needed. Now comes the big long wait to see the doctor in charge of Mattie’s case and getting the results. – I’ve nothing to report yet.

I spoke to my boss at work, who has been great. I cancelled my work trip to the UK next week. I don’t think, even if everything goes really well, that I would be giving anyone 100%.

Thursday 29th August – 3:30pm

I arrive on to the ward, just in time to see the doctor who is in charge of Mattie’s case leave. Emma quickly updates me on what was said. The MRI showed nothing which would be causing the Infantile Spasms he is experiencing. It may show something else. But we won’t know until the final results are provided. These are due at some point tomorrow I think. The good news is that we’re on track to head home tomorrow. Something we’re all looking forward to.

Mattie will be returning to the hospital every Monday for the foreseeable future for a check-up. Initially this is to gauge the impact of the steroids. It can affect blood sugar and if there is type 2 diabetes in the family (there is) it increases the risk, blood pressure and of course his immune system. The original plan had been to have the public health nurse from Balbriggan check on us at home, but they don’t have the equipment to take a babies blood pressure. So instead we’ll need to report back to the neurology department here in Temple Street. Emma was thankful for this as it also means that each week we’ll have the opportunity to check in on any developments we see with Matthew, and ask questions of the neurology team which the public health nurse wouldn’t be able to help us with.

The doctor explained that the steroid dosage he is on at the moment is very high, so high that some pharmacies would question it, even going so far as to ask about mal-practice. But this very high dosage is based on research which indicates that it helps. It also explains why the dosage is just for two weeks and then tails off with a four week ramp down. There is no guarantee it will help. The doctor explained that the process of finding the right drug combination for Matthew could take months or even years to get right. In the mean time we can only hope that he doesn’t regress.

The good news is that Mattie has a lot going for him. He is healthy, he’s developed normally up to this point. These are good portents. We’ve got more work to go, but our starting place is much better than many others.

After talking to Emma, I felt that it was obvious that the doctor had not given Mattie’s MRI a clean bill of health yet. Emma recalled that the doctor had said that (I’m obviously paraphrasing a second hand quote) … other neurologist may see that certain areas of the brain that might not be as they should be, but when I looked at it there was nothing on it which would be causing the severe spasms he is experiencing. . .

Thursday 29th August – 9:45pm

The ward is quiet, but a new baby on the ward has just woken and got scared. Her parents had just left for a bite to eat and she was alone. The nurses have called back the parents and are doing their best to settle the little one. Mattie stirs, but appears to be remaining asleep – which is good. Obviously my typing beside him isn’t waking him up. The nurse comes over and attaches the blood oxygen monitor to his toe. This too fails to wake him.

Mattie in “Good Form”

Mattie has been in good form when awake. Emma told me she got smiles and giggles from him which was fantastic. In fact the images which have just arrived on my phone show a fantastic smile from both of them:

Photo of @emmawoods and Mattie - both smiling after the MRI scan

Mattie and Emma – all smiles after the MRI

The clusters of spasms are still happening

Right now however it is good to see him sleep so well. He woke 45 minutes ago and had another cluster of spasms, which lasted about 8 minutes, but wasn’t has violent as they have been. Compared to the beginning of the week they seem to be changing. He’s having just one isolated spasm at times, and what feel like longer gaps until a full on cluster of spasms strikes. The steroids should have kicked in by now. The doctor explained that they will look at him again in two weeks. They are treating the EEG not the spasms. The changing nature of the spasms could indicate a change in the EEG pattern, but we will not know until Mattie’s next EEG – and that’s going to happen a week on Tuesday (September 10th). In the meantime all we can do is hope. Fingers crossed that over the next week the seizures wrap up – I sense that we really should be seeing something like that by now. But I don’t know. . . I’m no expert. . .

This is most definitely a marathon, not a sprint no matter how affective the drugs have been.

Good Signs

What we have seen today are smiles, and more smiles from Mattie in one day than we’ve seen in a long long time. That too could just be a side effect of the steroids, but it is very pleasant to see.

Sharing our learning and experiences

Both Emma and I, and you guys reading these missives have learnt so much over the last couple of days; new phrases and terminology, new friends, and other parents. We’ve had the reality checks – even if we got (or get) the most negative news, that we have ultimately been extremely lucky. We’ve come so far from the confusion and shock of Monday. I’d like in my way to do something to help other parents who will find themselves in this position too. Catching the spasms early is so very important, and they are so easy to confusion with other ailments. Perhaps we could share some of the videos of Mattie’s Spasms and the (edited) contents of our notes on line? – Anything really that others can stumble across and that will help them.


Tomorrow morning Matthew has an appointment with an optometrist. According to my own research the condition has is also linked to limited vision, or Cortical Visual Impairment. Basically there is nothing wrong with the eyes physically, an issue with the brain is impairing the comprehension and affectively the meaning of the images the eye is capturing. – This sounds like what my father; a stroke survivor is currently suffering from.

Googling “Infantile Spasms and Optometry” (I know I shouldn’t, but I avoided the crap and stayed with the academic papers on it) suggests that CVI is very common among children with Mattie’s condition, and rather depressingly the prognosis for those children’s vision is also not as good as other children. If he has CVI – then it may improve, but he’ll never have the full vision most of us enjoy. Fingers crossed…

After the optometrist appointment, assuming the official MRI results don’t show anything, and the vision tests go well, then tomorrow Mattie will be able to return home to us. Now that’s a Friday I’m really looking forward to – I just wish I could remove all the “if”s from the last sentence.

The ward is quiet now. The only sounds are my typing, the occasional footsteps from the nurses as they do their rounds, and of course the deep breathing coming out of Mattie as he sleeps.

Matthew trying to sleep in hospital

The “Mummy Card”, Mattie and Infantile Spasms (Part 3)

Wednesday 28th August 2013 – 10:25pm, Home.

Emma is once again with Mattie. We got news today that his MRI is scheduled for tomorrow morning. As a young baby this will mean sedating him, to do this he needs an empty tummy.

Apparently the low quantity of the sedative they use has one of two affects, it will either put him to sleep, or it will have the opposite affect and make him go hyper and a little wacky. To give the sedative its best shot at working Mattie should be tired too. So the plan for the morning is to wake Mattie at around 3:40am, so he can have a bottle before the four hour cut off before sedatives. He will then have to be up for the day 5:30 / 6am. His MRI is around 8, but the first, preliminary and verbal results won’t be available until tomorrow afternoon. The final results should come through after that.

Mattie was in a much better mood today, we got smiles and giggles from him, and at least the nurses were not taking blood samples from him today, they did that yesterday.

I had agreed with Emma that I would do a night time hospital stay with Matthew, but when we got the news that the MRI would be first thing tomorrow morning Emma, in her own words “played the Mummy card” and decided to stay. I honestly can’t blame her.

Infantile Spasms

Mattie has “Infantile Spasms”. It is labelled a catastrophic neurological condition. In the majority of cases it causes mental impairment. Most children will not develop at the expected rate, and will go on to have issues in later life. Catching it early, treating it before any regression in development makes a huge difference to the eventual outlook. What Mattie has going for him is that:

  • It was caught early (6 months is relatively early)
  • His development appears to be more or less on track; Emma says the last few weeks appear to be a bit slower
  • The dermatology scan was normal and for all intents and purposes he is a healthy 6 month old

The Growing Neurology Team

The Neurology team at Temple Street is bigger than we’d realised. Along with the doctors we’ve met so far this week there are also social workers and nurses. Today we were introduced to both.

Neurological Social Worker

We met with one of the social workers; it is their job to help us to adjust to the new reality of Mattie’s condition. As Mattie has a long term condition he qualifies for some additional state funding for his treatment, we’ve bunch of paperwork to complete for this. The social worker also took some time out to ask us how we were feeling, and coping with it all. I appreciated this; it was nice to be honest and frank with someone, and just explain what Emma and I were feeling at the time.

Emma and I both realise we ask questions about Mattie’s prognosis or outlook that it’s impossible for the doctors to predict at this stage. But knowing the condition and the data about it would really help us – as non-medical people – in understanding what we are all up against.

Emma said “We’re both engineers, we like the facts that the figures, we can deal with the uncertainty, just tell us”. The phrase “I’m an engineer” seemed to strike a bit of fear with the social worker replied with “Oh god. OHhh..kay”. Emma went on to explain that she works on and builds medical equipment, and while not neurology equipment, getting up to speed with the condition Mattie has certainly isn’t in a challenge – just tell us. I’m not sure if it was an approach they see that often. The social worker explained that each doctor has their own style and that some of them can be rather brutally honest. I think the honest truth is that Emma and I actually found that refreshing, and comforting in a weird way.

Finally the social worker recommended that we avoid Google for information as it wasn’t always reliable, and tended to be rather pessimistic. – I think, especially for Emma that this advice had arrived a little too late.

Neurology Nurse

Directly after chatting to the social worker we walked from the ward up to the neurology department to talk to one of the nurses. This being the maze of old buildings which is Temple Street we needed a guide to get us there. Even the signage inside the hospital reminds you of the older Irish road signs; ‘Neurology is that way’ points a sign. Following its direction you reach a junction, with no more signs for Neurology. It’s more a general guidance than anything you can actually navigate by.

One of the nurses met us at Neurology and we sat in a private, side room for a chat. Mattie was with us and on the way up to Neurology he started having a spasm. It was a bad one. When they hit, he can cry out. Emma and I have taken to holding him to comfort him and his whole body rocks with the spasms. He’ll hold your hand and either through spasm or reflex he grips you so very hard when they come. Afterwards, when they are really bad he’ll cry. Yesterday I tried to put him down on his cot when one hit. Immediately after one hit him he looked at me with such fear and panic in his eyes, that the only thing I could do is pick him up and hold him, try to sooth him through it. This was exactly what Emma was doing as we sat today talking to the Neurology Nurse.

Emboldened by our conversation with social worker, Emma’s opening gambit was an explanation of our backgrounds. The “I’m an engineer” line had roughly the same effect on the nurse as it did on the social worker. “Ohhh God.”. We started out by asking form background information on Mattie’s condition; can you give us some recommended reading?

The nurses’ first response was – Whatever you do, don’t Google it. (whoops too late).

My recollected and paraphrased conversation with the nurse follows:

Us: So do you have any recommended reading we could do? – Is there a book?

Nurse: No. There is no book. The research is still evolving.

Us: Do you have anything we could read? – If we were going to start out researching this condition where would I start?

Nurse: Erm, Googling “Infantile Spasms for parents” (giggle).. (pause) Well I do have this, which I got from Google; Understanding Infantile Spasms

The Understanding Infantile Spasms link is one Emma had already found, I’ve subsequently read it too. It’s pretty good, and doesn’t take long to fly through. – I’d recommend it if you were interested.

The nurse did tell us that the condition “Infantile Spasms” used to be referred to as “West Syndrome”

What the EEG showed

The nurse mentioned that the EEG gives them so much information, so I asked what did it actually show?

Mattie has Infantile Spasms. The old name for this is West Syndrome. It is diagnosed by an EEG. Not just the physical presence of the spasms. If the EEG shows a “hypsarrhythmia” – then that is Infantile Spasms. Mattie’s EEG on Monday showed a modified hypsarrhythmia pattern. I asked in what way was it modified, was it more aggressive, or less? – She didn’t know. Just that it was modified.

Prolonged presence of hypsarrhythmia will cause developmental delays and cognitive development issues. The purpose of the MRI is to ensure that there is no underlying physical issue for Matthew’s hypsarrhythmia. In 30% of cases no underlying cause is identified, this is known as a cryptogenic case. From the EEG the neurological team seem hopeful that the MRI will not show anything, hence boosting the chances of a successful outcome for Matthew.

Side effects of the drugs: Steroids and Immunosuppressants

Mattie is on a very large dose of Steroids. They do have some side effects. He’s going to each a bucket load more, he’ll put on weight, his tummy will be upset and he’ll be grumpy. More importantly it can affect blood pressure and if there is diabetes in the family (which there is, from my side ) then it can trigger issues there too. A more immediate concern is the impact to Mattie’s immune system – in short it will take an absolute hammering. We’ve to avoid anyone with a cough / cold / dodgy tummy / chicken-pox etc. Basically anything we would have let Ben just deal with, we can’t with Mattie. If he develops anything like that we need to take him to the GP straight away or take him to A&E in Temple Street.

The 6 weeks run straight over and into Emma’s return from maternity leave, which we may need to extend. It also raised a question for us; will our crèche actually accept a baby with this form of epilepsy?

Matthew trying to sleep in hospital

Matthew trying to sleep in hospital

Mattie will be on the steroids for 6 weeks, 2 weeks of aggressive dosage then 4 weeks to wean him of them. His entire system will be hooked on them and basically stopping the steroids directly will affect his whole metabolism. It wouldn’t be a good thing at all.

Assuming that the steroids don’t work – there is an internationally agreed list of drugs which are then attempted, one at a time and at varying levels of intensity. With all possible level of intensity attempted before moving to a new drug. – This can be a long process.

Treatment – assuming no root cause

The key to treating infantile spasms is to treat the EEG. If the EEG returns to normal then spasms should also go and he’ll return to normal. In the mean time we’ll be doing a bucket load of EEGs.

If on the very rare chance that the Steroids do work first time, and if the MRI comes back clear and if his blood tests come back OK, then once the six week course of drugs has completed Mattie could go on almost normally with no additional treatment required. He will have continual monitoring however as a precaution. – But there are a lot of “if”s in that statement.

With all of the above comes such a huge sense of disbelieve. It’s hard to believe that Mattie could be so ill – he just looks physically so well. But he’s in Temple street for a reason, and while the potent ‘so far so good’ stands, and with the neurology team and everyone writing and reading this rooting for him, the published odds are not so good. It’s hard to imagine, and even harder to articulate, but if you were putting money on him to come out all clear, you’d probably lose it.

Tomorrow is going to be a long, hard tough day. The signs so far are good. But I know Emma and I are trying hard not to count our chickens yet. We’ll be waiting for the final MRI results first.

PS: We’re no experts; a small reminder

We’re not experts in Infantile Spasms, we’re learning. If you work in this field, or have been through this before and believe that some of the information in any of these stories is not completely accurate, then please – leave a comment and let me know. I’d only be too happy to correct.

Matthew asleep in Temple Street Hospital

Infantile Spasms and Matthew (Part 2)

Tuesday 27th of August 2013 – 8:45pm, Temple Street Children’s Hospital

Mattie is a sleep. At last. It’s great to see him at peace. The last few hours, his normal bed time, have been hard. His last sleep was around 3pm, and the ward is very noisy around his normal bed time. It’s when he is tired that his spasms hit. They are particularly common just as he is waking from a deep sleep, or is restless and can’t sleep. To top it all off the steroids he’s been prescribed have started to take effect, the first impact has been his increased appetite – he’s eaten loads and early. Then he started teething, poor we guy. His cheeks where flying off him the nurses have been fantastic, they are very observant and right to hand whenever you need them – they are so good it’s almost spooky. But they came over and gave him some calpol. That helped a lot.

As I’m sure you all know, Mattie was admitted to hospital following a meeting with a consultant yesterday. It took Emma and I by surprise. Mattie had been experiencing spasms, he’d throw is head forward. At first we thought it was just a muscle development thing, perhaps his neck and upper body had not developed enough to keep him upright for long? But when we started to notice his eye’s rolling in his head, just before the action took place we decided to get it checked out. Emma had recorded some of the spasms in her iPhone and was able to show it to the consultant. Within 3 hours a bed was found on a ward, Mattie was admitted, a letter sent to our family GP, an EEG performed, the results analysed and he’d been started on a course of steroids, with an MRI tentatively scheduled in a few days.

It caught Emma and I on the hop; I think we both half expected the consultant to tell us we were worrying over nothing.

Emma stayed with Matthew last night. Emma’s sister collected Ben from crèche and I was home in time to do bedtime with Ben before swapping; Emma’s sister baby sat and I was able to visit Emma and Mattie in hospital. Emma did the first night with Matthew and then we swapped this afternoon.

After Emma left Matthew woke almost immediately, typically – just as I’d left his bedside to visit the loo! He was grumpy when I got back and was in the middle of a spasm attack.

The spasms come in waves. We’re keeping a record of them on a log sheet for the ward. This helps to see if the steroids he’s on are having an effect. They normally last about 8 minutes, during which he’d have lurching like behaviour, throwing his head forward if sitting. When lying down he’ll kick is legs into the air. They can upset him and he’ll cry during them.

Trip to Dermatology

Matthew had a trip to the dermatology department. He’s suffering from eczema, always has done. But apparently skin abnormalities can be indicators of what’s wrong with him. We walked through the maze of corridors which is the hospital. They all seemed to be heated to the same temperature as any public swimming pool (roasting), with the exception of one room – the dermatology room.

The dermatology examination, which consisted of shining a UV light (Black light for the American’s – I think) over his skin in a dark cool room, revealed one thing; Mattie loves UV lights and cool dark rooms – he was almost asleep. Nothing untoward was found. He’s a follow on appointment in 6 months’ time just to check up on him and any possible changes.

While walking back the ward we passed the Temple Street School, it’s a full Department of Education school, currently shut for the summer, it opens next week. There is no escape from homework even when you are ill. Well at least Matthew has a couple of years yet before he has to worry about that.

Neurology Visit

One of the doctors from Neurology came down to visit and asked how he was doing. I had a bunch of questions. I wanted to know what the EEG showed, was there anything additional they could infer from it? The doctor said it showed increased electrical activity. That Mattie’s brain wasn’t returning to a normal rhythm at all, even without the seizures. They were looking to get that ‘baseline’ down to normal. The steroids would do that. I asked if it was epilepsy? The doctor said ‘no’ but it was in the same category. I asked if it was like the traditional version, with an electrical storm over the brain which then passes from one side of the brain to the other. The doctor said no. ‘It’s very complicated’,  – That was a very frustrating answer, I had to try to check my response. I know its complicated, I’m trying my best to understand it. I felt myself wishing there was some recommended reading on this.

The doctor went on to explain that based on what they’d seen in the EEG they didn’t expect to see anything in the MRI, but wanted to do it rule anything else out. Finally the doctor tried to reassure me that they had seen a little girl recently who was 9 months old who suffered from the same condition. The little girl had reacted well to the steroids and now was basically normal.

Visit from all of Neurology

The Doctor in charge of Mattie’s case came down to visit. Along with this doctor came every other doctor from Neurology I’d ever seen before.. Wow. The group descended on the bed. I’d just put Mattie down, hoping he’d sleep – obviously that wasn’t going to happen now.

Matthew asleep in Temple Street Hospital

Matthew asleep in Temple Street Hospital

The Doctor asked if everything had been explained to me. I said yes, I think so, but there is a lot to take it – it was a shock to have Mattie admitted yesterday. I’d appreciate an explanation.

The Doctor explained again what was in the EEG. That this was typical of this type of condition. Almost classic. It’s something they watch out for in this age range. The pattern it showed was fairly typical. He’s smack bang in the middle of what they would expect for this condition. He’s 100% on that. This Doctor said it was a form of epilepsy.

The Doctor said the plan is to try to control the spasms with steroids. They try to nip it in the bud at this early age, It is treated fairly aggressively. They are concerned that continuing to let them go on will have a long term effect on his development. The steroid treatment will last for 2 weeks. No conclusions will be reached before the end of the two week period. If it is controlled within two weeks and the steroids are working then they will look to wean him off them for a following couple of weeks. Then continue to monitor. There are a team of nurses and experts on hand who can help. This includes a telephone help line.

During the conversation The Doctor asked to see the videos we have of Matthew, unfortunately they are only Emma’s phone, not mine.

At this point I had an opportunity to ask a few questions.

Infantile Spasms & Long Term

I first asked about the long term impact. Is this a condition Mattie will have to live with for the rest of his life? – With on going treatment?

The Doctor: It’s too early to tell for Mattie. That will become clear over the coming months. There are generalities which I can explain, but obviously you’d like to know what’s going to happen with this chap? (Point’s at Mattie).

Me: ‘Yes, I would. But the generalities would help – it would be good to understand the ball park – assuming the MRI doesn’t show anything.’

The Doctor : Well there are children who go on to have learning difficulties, and need assistance, who we continue to see on a repeated basis as we go forward. We do see those cases.

There are children for whom the steroids don’t work, and they have learning difficulties and need additional help.

There are children for whom the steroids work very well. They may have some slow development, and learning difficulties.

We see everything in between.

Infantile Spasms & Short Term

I was keen to understand, as much from a personal planning point of view, as anything else how long Matthew will be in hospital. The Doctor explained that Mattie will be in until Friday, They don’t want to keep him in beyond the weekend. The Doctor is keeping him in to ensure an appointment for the MRI. In the past the steroids were taken via injection and we’d have to train the do parents to do the injection. But now the drugs are orally administrated mixture which can be taken at home. But access to in house facilities is quicker as someone on a ward; an MRI for an outpatient takes much longer. So if it means staying in hospital for an extra day to get the MRI then The Doctor recommend we stay.

The Doctor explained that the best hope is that Mattie takes to the steroids really well, the MRI shows nothing and that we get him home soon. The impact on him going forward and developing will only become clear in the coming months.

Our Personal Observations of Mattie

I’m not sure if the steroids are helping, maybe it’s too early to say, maybe I’m seeing more because now I know what to look for…

Matthew and Emma going for Mattie's EEG

Infantile Spasms and Matthew (Part 1)

This time last week our little boy, Matthew who is not yet six months old was admitted to hospital and Emma (my wife) and I were trying to come to terms with what had happened.


I remember it like yesterday, Mattie was in my hands – almost Lion King style, and the whole family was around welcoming the new arrival to the world. Mattie’s older brother was playing in the corner of the room. As I showed my new son off to the world it happened. Holding him in my hands, his smile vanished and his head dropped forward witch such force that I clutched him to my chest to prevent him from landing on the floor. Scary, and odd. I mentioned it to my wife Emma, after discussing it we decided that at his age, about 4 months it was to be expected. After all he was only a few weeks old, perhaps his little body wasn’t capable of holding his head up?

Dismissing the Fear

“Maybe it’s in my head” Emma said, “but I don’t think Mattie is doing as well, developmentally as Ben. I think I recall Ben doing more at this age.”

Mattie was now 5 months old, and perfect, how could there be anything wrong? I thought. Mattie’s head bobs had continued and Emma had become increasingly worried about them. “I’ve been Googling the head bobs, they could be some form of spasms.” Emma said, “The good news is that they are benign and should pass in a couple of months” .. Nothing to worry about I thought. Nothing at all, Emma was probably just getting worried about nothing.

“Chris, I’ve got that appointment with the doctor on Monday, can you look after Mattie that day, I’d love to go alone, it would be so much quicker.” asked Emma.

Unfortunately I had a bunch of meetings on that day and couldn’t take the time off. Instead Emma took Mattie with her to her doctor. It was after her check-up that she mentioned Mattie’s head drops to her doctor. Emma’s doctor gave us a referral to the Children’s Hospital in Temple street in Dublin, we had the appointment booked with the paediatric consultant booked for one week away.

The week did not pass normally. Emma became increasingly worried about Mattie, and what he was doing. We decided to video Mattie’s behaviour and his head bobs. Sod’s law we thought, we’d get the consultants appointment and Mattie will be perfect, no head bobs – at least this way we’d have one on record to show.

The Consultant

I’d let work know I would work from home on the Monday of the appointment with the consultant. I had a lot to do with a work conference scheduled in London the following week, working from home made sense. I had imagined that for Mattie’s appointment that I’d only be out of the office for a couple of hours, returning directly afterwards.

Sitting in the consultants office, with Mattie on my knee we described the head bobs to him. He didn’t seem really concerned. Then Emma offered him the video on her phone.


“They look like spasms” he said.

The consultant advised us that we needed to get an EEG to check him out. He made a phone call from his desk and found space on a ward for Matthew. He filled in the admission slip, collected together all of Matthew’s notes and made asked us to wait outside while he dictated a letter to our family GP. He came out and met us, asked us to walk around to the hospital, Mattie’s notes in our hands and go straight to the admissions office.

The Hospital

Temple street is like a maze. Walking from the admission office to the ward was not straight forward. Honestly if you’ve ever been in Temple Street you’ll know it makes Hogwarts look like a walk in the park. As we pondered what direction to turn, the consultant appeared. “Hello” he shouted, “This way”. He led Emma, Matthew and I to the ward. We’d nothing with us, as we were not expecting to have a hospital visit, so once we’d packed the buggy up, got the hospital tags on Matthew’s arms we were off – into the Neurology department.


With little waiting around we were whisked into a room, Matthew and Emma sat on a bed facing a camera hooked up to a PC / work station. Leads were attached to Mattie’s head and the EEG was started. Just as the EEG kicked off Matthew began spasming.

Baby Matthew having an EEG with Emma at Temple Street Children's Hospital

Baby Matthew having an EEG with Emma at Temple Street Children’s Hospital

Infantile Spasms

“I’m sure you’ll get the results soon.” Once the EEG was complete the operator noted that “It’s very unusual, but the consultant came up in person and handed me the paper work for the EEG. They don’t normally do that.”

The speed at which everything had happened was frightening and reassuring at the same time. We still had no idea what was really wrong with Mattie.

We moved from the EEG room into a waiting room in the Neurology department. The consultant came in to see us. He explained that Matthew had “Infantile Spasms”, the EEG had shown that. He then explained that the Neurology department would be looking after Matthew from here on.

Two members of the Neurology department came in to see us and as they were explaining what was going on, Matthew had another spasm attack. It was a confusing conversation. Looking back I can’t really remember what was said – just that it was cut short with the spasms, and that they were going to start Matthew on a very high dose of steroids and would return him to the ward. He’d be staying in hospital until they could arrange an MRI.

I called Emma’s sister to ask her to collect our eldest little boy, Ben (not yet two himself) from his crèche, while Emma and I worked out who was staying with Matthew and was needed for a hospital stay.

This was to be the start of a very confusing week.

Getting ready for the night ahead

We decided that Emma would stay with Matthew that first night and that I would return home, get our other little boy ready for bed before heading back into the hospital with all the gear needed.

Ben knew something was up the minute I collected him. They say kids have a sixth sense and I do think that’s true. We got home and the house simply felt empty.. dead quiet.. and a little weird to be honest. It was hard not to feel scared when I walked into our bedroom and saw Matthew’s empty cot beside the bed.

As soon as Ben walked into the house he said “Mammy! … Baabaa?” and walked around looking for them.